Monday Already

I know I haven't posted since last Wednesday and while I really meant to and have had a few ideas, I just never got on and wrote them. I also haven't written a McFatty post in a couple of weeks but that is mostly because I've been feeling super huge and am to afraid to get on the scale. I am so worried that I'll be disappointed with the number that I'll just give up all together. I have my good days and my bad days and maybe today was just a bad day.

I especially feel bad whenever I go into a store to buy new clothes. I went into Ann Taylor Loft this weekend and immediately felt like I was wasting my time. I didn't even really look because I was so stuck on how bad I thought everything would look on me. It's getting cold out and while I am so excited for the change, I need some new sweaters and long sleeved shirts, I just have no idea what to get to make myself feel comfortable.

I can't say that I've been eating healthy because I haven't. I have been to Houston two weekends in a row and when I go down there I tend to eat junk. We go out to eat and get fast food so I know I'm not doing any good there. We're staying home this weekend and I am getting back on track this week. I'm also looking forward to getting some exercise, Callie and I are planning to start walking twice a week now that it is cooler out! I hope this helps me feel better, gives me more energy and boost my self esteem. I don't think I am going to be truly happy until I can see a difference.