Talk About a Plateau

I'm just not happy...plain and simple, I'm tired of this plateau I'm on and it's time to make a change! I'm saying goodbye to number 147.

Last week I realized that I was in need of a change, I felt like I was being super lazy and making way to many excuses. When I looked at my weight tracker and saw how close I was to reaching my 10% goal it was like a slap in the face! I'm only 2 pounds away from a 15 pound loss...why am I slacking? I adjusted a few of my bad habits and I thought I'd made enough of a change last week but I apparently didn't make enough of a change. So I'm going back to my early days and I'm going to be super strict on myself when it comes to what I'm eating. I'm going to stay under my 29 points and I'm going to start walking again.

I need to get out of this lazy slump I've been in! Yes I'm tired, and yes I'm drained but sitting on the couch watching TV isn't going to help any. I'm not happy with how I look...I know I look better than I did, but I'm not where I wanted to be at this point. When I started this program and was on a 1 to 2 pound weekly average I thought, wow! If I keep this up I'll have lost at least 15 pounds by April and I can totally be down to 125 by July...well not so much anymore.

Michael said that everyone reaches a plateau and it's not as easy to lose as it was before...I'm not satisfied with that. So here are my goals for this week and on through May.

GOALS:
* Eat only my 29 points each day, if I go over, don't go over more than 5 points.
* Only go out to eat ONE time a week, Sundays after church
* Resist Easter candy
* Get my activity level up again

WEIGHT LOSS GOALS:
* Lose at least 2 pounds and reach 15 pound goal by April 30
* Lose at least 5 pounds in May (1 pound a week)
* Lose at least 5 pounds in June
* Lose at least 5 pounds in July to reach my goal weight of 125 pounds

So there are my goals...they seem reasonable and I'm really going to do my best to stick with it. Maybe my next plateau will be a lifetime one at my goal weight ha-ha!

Anyone else in the same boat? How are you doing? Are you in a place in your journey that you feel frustrated? Are you super happy with your journey so far? I want to know how your're doing!

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Week 14 on Weight Watchers

Good McFatty Monday all! I hope everyone had a good weekend, mine was awesome.

Parker and I spent the weekend in Houston with my Momma, we visited with all of my family down there which means a lot of shopping and eating. Thankfully I was good and didn't gain at all, but I didn't lose either.

I loved the little note that was on my tracker this morning when I weighed. "You didn't lose this week, if you're happy with this weight keep doing what your doing. If you want to lose more take a look at the tips below." Umm no I'm not happy with this weight and I will be losing next week thank you very much.

I love what Ms. Blair (The creator of "McFatty Monday") said on her McFatty post today about how she feels like that skinny girl she wants to be and tells herself lies to get that cupcake she's been eyeing. I feel like that too most days, I say things like "It's alright, I didn't eat breakfast today, I can eat a burger and fries for lunch..." Hence the lingering 147 on the scale.

I'm sorry I don't have a whole lot to report, we've been consumed with Parker's ear business lately and hopefully I can get focused and get to my goal weight by June!

How was your weekend?

 

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Keep Moving Forward

It's been a long road...we're tired.

On Tuesday morning we loaded up with Parker in his PJs, a blanket and his sea horse in hand. We headed over to the surgery center nervous and worried but hopeful that this second surgery, an adenoidectomy and ear tube replacement, would once and for all fix our baby's ears.

When we arrived at 8:00 that morning Parker was his usual happy self trying to run around the waiting room and play with another little girl that was probably his age or a little younger. We distracted him with games on my phone and tried our hardest not to mention food or eating, Parker hadn't eaten since around 5 the night before.

After signing papers and paying a little money up front to insure the surgery would take place we were called back to the room where we would wait for Parker to go back into surgery.

We saw a sweet nurse and got Parker's little open backed shirt and our bracelets...then we waited. We saw that nurse and another nurse every so often but for the most part we were just waiting and trying to keep Parker from tearing wires out of machines.

The nurse finally came in after what seemed like forever and gave Parker some purple medicine that was supposed to make him sleepy. He took his medicine like a big boy and we waited some more.

After another 15 or 20 minutes...maybe longer, the doctor finally came in, he said hello and gave Parker a couple of high fives before he started talking to us. "So we've got him scheduled to do an ademoidectomy and tube replacement, but we're just going to do the tubes today."...silence..."A child needs their adenoids until they are at least 2 years old, now if he were 22 months old I'd go ahead and do it but 18 months is just to young. So we're just going to replace his tubes and in 6 months if he is still having infections we'll go ahead and remove the adenoids."...No.

As I was listening to what this man was saying, red flags were going up all over the place. How could he have told us in his office 2 weeks ago that Parker needed his adenoids removed because that was the cause for his problems and let us schedule a surgery to tell us on the day of surgery that he wouldn't be doing it? I was at a loss for words.

I looked up at this man who so casually walked into the room and told me that my baby wouldn't be getting the surgery we were prepared for and told him "No. Why would I have you put a second set of tubes put into his ears when they didn't work the first time around?" I began to cry because we were so close to a possible end to Parker's pain, so close to Parker having a normal healthy childhood. Michael took the doctor into another room and I could hear him raising his voice.

I cried a lot as I waited with Parker and told him that we would be done in just a little bit, he could eat in just a little bit and everything would be fine. He was restless because I was upset. We were so close.

When Michael came back into the room the anesthesiologist came in and told us that he was sorry, he tried to be nice and say he would waive his portion of the surgery but that wasn't the problem. We were told by the doctor that we trusted that we were going to have a surgery done and then that doctor came in and told us he didn't want to do it because of Parker's age. In my opinion, he should have known Parker's age right off the bat, before he even recommended the surgery...did he even look at Parker's chart? I don't know.

We got our money back and were told how to get Parker's medical records so that we would have that information when we found a new doctor. We're back at square one. We meet a new doctor on Monday morning and I hope that we can get some answers.

Thank you to everyone who has been praying, we are so appreciative.

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Marching for Ella Grace

I meant to post this last night...of course that didn't happen, between cooking dinner, bath time, American Idol and Grey's Anatomy (DID YOU WATCH IT OMG!!!) then bed time I just forgot.
 
On April 30 I along with some friends and family will be walking in the March for Babies. When I made the team I was excited that I'd be walking and getting donations to help babies who are born too soon or very sick. I'd be supporting the research needed to help mothers carry out a full term pregnancy.
 
As I looked up shirt designs online and thought of recipes to bake for a bake sale I had a thought. I want to walk for a certain baby, it would make our journey more meaningful, and I knew who I wanted my team to walk for. Ella Grace.
 
In a much too short 21 weeks and 1 day Ella Grace not only changed her Mommy and Daddy's lives, she changed the world. Ella Grace left the earth too soon and was delivered straight into her Maker's hands on March 4, 2011. This little girl not only touched the lives of her family, she touched the lives of all who knew about her and after 2 losses she was the miracle that we'd all been praying for. We all waited in anticipation for the first weekend in March when we would all find out what Britt and "A" were having...instead we received calls and emails that they had lost their sweet baby.  
 
On my way home from work that day I called my granny and cried...it wasn't fair! My heart was broken for them and I felt helpless, helpless and guilty, I had a happy healthy baby and they had lost their third.
 
I told my team yesterday that we were going to dedicate our walk and any future walks to Ella Grace and they all agreed that it was a wonderful decision. In this small way my team and I are helping, our donations may help with the research to save babies like Ella Grace and by walking for her, we're keeping her memory alive.
 
If you would like to donate to our cause please click on the March for Babies link in left sidebar or go to http://www.marchforbabies.org/team/MarchinMommas 
 
The journey to saving babies lives may be a long one but you have to walk to get there.

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Life in General

Things in my little world are slowly coming together. I mentioned in a previous post that I was super stressed and had no energy and well...those things are still true today but maybe not to the same degree.

Parker was sick all last weekend, he ran fever, had a cough and was very congested. I took him to see the doctor Monday morning and his ears were still infected from the last time we were there. The doctor said that they must not have completley healed and the remaining fluid caused the ears to become infected again.

So now that he was on antibiotics again, only 4 days after getting off of the last one, he was getting better. Monday and Tuesday he ran fever but not as often as over the weekend. Wednesday he was his old self again and was able to return to his friends at daycare. Guess who also got to go back to work...This momma! I was sad to not be able to stay home with my little trooper but It was nice to be around people my age ha-ha.

So he's healing slowly and he is still on for his surgery on Tuesday. I can't say that I'm looking forward to the actual surgery but I am looking forward to the outcome, hopefully no more ear infections.

Other than my kiddo being sick and my world revolving around him, I've been feeling good! I have more energy and I don't mind looking at the girl in the mirror, I'm finally going in the right direction.

Today a co-worker came up and asked me what I've been doing and that I looked great. I told her Weight Watchers and that I'd lost 13 pounds! She said that I was doing really good and to keep it up! Hearing that I look good from someone who isn't a family member was huge for me. I finally feel like maybe I'm noticeably thinner. She made my day :o)

This weekend Michael's going fishing so Parker and I may go get a little pool or maybe even run through the sprinkler out in the front yard, it's supposed to be beautiful.

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