The Big Day

One year ago today, at this exact time, I was in tremendous pain. As much as I was trying not to be a wimp, I was crying my eyes out and occasionally throwing out profanities. I'm not exactly sure what I was doing at this very moment, I was either rolled up in a ball crying or I was on my hands and knees hitting a pillow and using the F word a lot. It was not what I expected at all but after 11 hours of labor, some of which was glorious thanks to my epidural, and one emergency c-section later, I was blessed with this little bundle.

This was the happiest moment of my life. When I heard him cry I was overjoyed and I cried too.

The most beautiful face I've ever seen.

My little baby is not a baby anymore. Today he is one year old, this year has been one of the hardest of my life but also one of the most rewarding. I would not trade any part of it for an easier route. We've been through things most people never have to go through and we've been through things that every parent goes through. I think in some ways we got off pretty easily, Parker is the happiest baby I've ever seen. We are so blessed.

So today I will take my big boy to get his very first haircut and then we're going to have a birthday lunch! I will post more tomorrow or Sunday after the party but for now, here is my precious baby on his first birthday.

Benjamin Parker 9-10-09